GwenisRayGod

"I will write out my feelings on a post-it note, to tell you exactly what exactly is, to show you that maybe is just maybe, and that you aren't you anymore, Then post it: 'I'm sorry. This isn't simple.' Then, maybe, you, will know exactly." I wrote this on a night that mattered, and found it on a night when it's subject was lost, just to find that post-it was for me.

1. I'm not much of a fan of pretending, but I'd forever pretend for you. Because I'm afraid that if you knew anything--just anything, you'd walk away and I'd much rather remember your satisfied smiling face than to see the back of your head in a down cast glance. 2. I didn't go because I told myself I was busy doing other things. You were a sliver of something that changed my life and I couldn't even make it to your funeral. I'm sorry--but I guess I'll always just be too busy to say those things. 3. I wish I could give you a warning sign, because each day I feel myself doing something horrible to you. Sometimes I look in your eyes and I thi